after about 9+ months of chatting, M finally came to visit this past weekend. i feel confident speaking for the both of us when i say we had a very good time. from sitting on the floor in barnes & noble and chatting, to walking around the city, to dinner at lillie’s, walking around brooklyn, & queen of hearts at company xiv — it felt comfortable and familiar and exciting and i already can’t wait till next month when i visit M for the weekend.
yes, it’ll be a whole month until i see them, which is…unfamiliar territory. i’ve never had a LDR, and it’s weird because, like, what do i do with this NRE? where will it live? how does it get expressed in this type of situation?
i find interesting how NRE & grief over a breakup can co-exist. because the grief, though not as pervasive, is still present. so while part of me is caught up in the whirlwind of NRE, another part is still attempting to stem tears.
i guess i need to continue to widen my circle of people, as my capacity allows. and there are definitely people i need to catch up with. in fact, i’m seeing B this weekend, thank god. it’s been entirely too long (& that’s my bad), and i miss the fuck out of him.
i think my edibles are kicking in. hell yeah.
